Recently I’ve been feeling really inadequate. I’m good. I take my meds, I eat my dinner, I go to meetings, I don’t drink (one day at a time). Those things conspire to make me feel like a really boring person. Who wants to go out with someone who can’t have a glass of wine over dinner? Who wants to be around someone who can’t cope with life without medication? Who wants to be friends with someone who goes to meetings on a Friday night? I start to feel uncool. I have to constantly remind myself that I wasn’t “cool” when I was drinking. There was nothing fun about my unpredictability, violent mood-swings and bad behaviour. And if I’m boring now, I’m sure I wasn’t exactly interesting when I drank. Probably I said the same things thirty times and fell off my own feet. That’s not cool or intriguing, it’s just worrying and silly. Anyone sensible would rather know me medicated, alcohol-free and going to meetings, than pissed, unmedicated and going nowhere without ten drinks in me. Right?