After dealing with mental health problems since I was about 13, I have been diagnosed with bipolar. I also have problems with alcohol abuse, self harm and sometimes eating. Recently, I am trying to deal with my problems in an effective, honest, positive, sustainable way. I fail a lot, slip up a lot, stand up again and fear the fall every time. This year, so far, has been a bit of a disaster but in between times there’s hope. This blog is meant to be a positive way to work through what’s going on, connect with other people in similar situations, and remind myself as often as possible that at least I’m trying.
The name is taken from a Biffy Clyro song, “God & Satan” and the idea is that life/ relationships/ etc are about trying to focus on someone’s good side, and believe in that. I’ll only see your good side… and believe it’s a miracle. It’s easy to see others’ good sides, point them out, hold them up, try to make them seen. If only it were as easy to appreciate our own good sides, it’d be a miracle…
bit of shameless self promotion: I write a poem a day at http://www.thumbingathought.wordpress.com
*This blog tries to be positive, thoughtful, reflective and sometimes funny. But some parts were written while ill and sleepless. I have left the unstable parts in because they are as important as my more rational reflections (for me, anyway. For others probably tedious or faintly disturbing…)